Tomorrow begins 2011, a brand new year full of new experiences, surprises, and opportunities. In the past, on New Year's Eve, I've reflected on the past year with mainly regrets. Regrets that I didn't find the right boyfriend, the right job, the right friends. I fought with family members, I was unhappy with myself and with those close to me. I longed for the coming year to be better, but I really couldn't specifically visualize what it was that I wanted. I thought that whatever you want to call it, fate, God, was going to either make the coming year a good one, or a bad one. I wasn't in control of my destiny. Whatever was going to happen was going to happen, and I had no say in it.
I have a lot of things going for me. And I have a lot of things that I want to change about my life. This New Year's Eve is different. Because for the first time in my life, I know that I have to power to make this coming year of 2011 awesome. I have a lot of things that I am working on, both professionally and personally, and I plan to set goals for myself and see them through. These are not your typical New Year's resolutions. No, I am definitely going to work on these, not just try to stick with them for a couple of weeks.
So no more feeling sorry for myself. No more blaming my problems on other people. No more missing out on things I want to do because I'm afraid. I'm not afraid anymore to let go of people that I don't love. As Lindsay Lohan said in Mean Girls, I have to "suck all of the poison out of my life". Sometimes the poison is other people. Sometimes the poison is yourself.
I hope that everyone who reads this (which isn't a lot of people but who knows!) I hope that you can find the courage within yourself to make some goals for the coming year and make them happen for yourself, rather than trusting it all to fate.
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